I am so tired of my friends, the millions of American’s out there being treated as second class citizens. I can’t stand it anymore. Every time I read this BULL shit I want to cry. Look, I don’t define my sexuality. I love who ever my heart falls for. Why should I be treated like a second class citizen for who I love? The idea that not only is Same Sex Marriage, not recognized in the states it’s allowed in but getting married OUTSIDE of United States, it’s not recognized as well for citizenship. A Heterosexual couple can get married and citizenship is given. British women, American Man = Women is now a citizen of both England + USA and vice versa. Legally there is no way for a same sex couple allowed to receive citizenship, even if their marriage is legal.
Now before anyone jumps to the conclusion that I am getting married anytime soon, Slllooooooowwww down. I’m not. It’s just something that has come to my attention and I can’t stand it. My mom and I were talking today about how in the US both Gay couples and Hetro couples have equal visitation rights at hospitals now. I told my dad about it and he just shrugged it off about how it was not that big a deal. That privately owned possibles should be allowed to make the choice. What right does anyone have that sort of right? To say “Sorry, I know your love is the same as everyone else, but I just don’t get it. So can you wait in the lobby?”
I’m just so tired of this. I’m so tired of the fact that if I want to chose to be with a women over a man, I suddenly have to take 1,000 more steps to have a normal relationship, where if I was a man, I wouldn’t have to take those extra steps. It just doesn’t make sense and I’m so tired of this.
1 Song that makes you feel sexy 2 Song that makes you dance like a maniac 3 Song with the name of who you like in the title 4 Theme song to your life 5 Song from the first band you saw live 6 Fuck the police! 7 Song that makes you feel badass 8 Best stalking song 9 Song that describes you and your friends 10 Song with a ridiculously long name 11 Song you know all the words to 12 Song from a band no one else has heard of 13 Song about food 14 Song from the year you were born
…Of flesh and bone And I wept much, we all do I thought I might die alone. But I had never never never never met you So baby be good to me
I’ve got nothing to give you, you see except everything, everything, everything, everything All the good, and the bad Cause I’ve been bad I’ve lied, cheated, stolen, and been ungrateful for what I had And I’m afraid habits rule my waking life I’m scared and I’m running in my sleep For you But all of the oceans and rivers and showers will wash it all away And make me clean For you Cause I had never, never, never met you
So let’s take a loan out Put it down on a house In a place we’ve never lived in a place that exists In the pages of scripts and the songs that they sing And all the beautiful things That make you weep but Don’t have to make you weak
Cause I never, never, never loved somebody The way I loved you.
I am floating beneath the surface. My lungs are on fire but I feel at peace. I know I should kick for the surface but my legs and arms don’t seem to have any desire to try. Instead I am just floating. My ears popping and ringing. I’m dreaming. But there you are. And there she is. And there she is. All three. All three sets of eyes upon me. Her’s are filled with such a sadness and loneliness. I want to help her. To tell her it’s okay. But I’ve done that so many times. I can’t anymore. I’m too tired to even think of trying such a thing. Then there she is. A mixed emotion of anger and sadness painted across her face. I hate her yet I am her. Her and I are so alike and so different. “I’m sorry but I can’t let you have her.” I’d whisper if I could. I reach for you. If you hold me beneath the surface everything will be fine. Your finger tips graze mine and then I am enveloped in your arms. I am home and I am safe. Still their eyes are on me. Waiting for a moment to strike.